Holy cow! Holy cow! I can't believe it - this can't be happening. These were the thoughts running through my head when we got our travel call to pick up our son, Emmett, in South Korea.
You see, we were told it would take 20 - 40 days for this call. Seven (7) days later, today, I received the news. For 1 year we've been praying for this call, and now it is here. Along with immense joy, came the realization - the sudden impact of reality, that I will be a mother. A mom, to a 2 year old boy who knows nothing about me except a picture we sent a month ago. I wonder what his little head is thinking. He doesn't know me - nor Craig. And yet he needs to put his complete and total trust in us. He needs to trust that we'll take care of him, love him, giggle and play with him. And we have vowed that we will care for him, love him, giggle and play with him! But, what a shock this all must be for our little guy.
I can only pray that God is preparing his little heart for what is to come. I pray that God be preparing my heart for what is to come, for this roller coaster in front of me. Huh, roller coaster... I remember my first roller coaster ride. I begged my Dad (who doesn't like roller coasters) to come with me. He asked why I choose him to go when Mom was the one who liked roller coasters. I told him he had bigger arms to catch me if I fell out! I'm looking for that now, God. You're big arms to catch me if I fall out!
That's all the time I've got for now. Keep checking back as we travel to Korea, I'll be posting the latest and greatest as we learn it. We'll go for the ride together (well, kinda). =)
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